7th June 2010

Hi there,
today is my first day for study week. Trust me, it is extremely stressful and lonely to stay in the room, with nothing much around. No entertainment, but just all stacks of books waiting for you to flipped through and a list of video lectures to listen over and over again, just to get used to the accent of the Australian accents. It is totally terrible and horrified.

Just finish taking my heavy meal, pumpkin soup and stir fry pumpkin chicken mushroom. Haha. Kinda tasty actually ( oh well, it seems flattering myself over here, or perhaps I just want to take a short break while having my lunch). I recalled those days while I were having my finals in UTAR. I don't remember that I was so bad feeling as compared to now. Here, totally different. Haiz, I really regretting to study such situation, but no choice and have to get use to it and forced myself to go on. Somehow, at some critical point, my mind collapse, thought of getting way easy by just ending my life like that. Somehow it seems not worthy thinking it rational, but that the moment I really had the courage to do as such.

Well, I guess I would most likely to teach more than studying here like hell. There is a friend of mine, who stay overnight in the lab just to study... Sounds crazy right? Well, I think to others, I am as such as well, but the only difference is I study at home rather than outside. Outside was just too cold, and I don't even to step out from my door. It is winter now, but no snowing. Haha. I doubt there aren't snow in Canberra.

Another few more days, my exam C result will be out. Trust me, most likely I don't think I will pass again. Another anxious and disappointment is waiting for me again .

Have to continue to listen my video lecture then. Miss you a lot and add oil in your work.

hugs

Thanks!!!!:)

Ha, Thank you so much for your wishes... I know you are now damn busy and stressful, i can empathise your situation now. So, i do really hope that you dont go crazy and can successfully graduated from your Universiti. You know what, somehow in my thinking, i know you can do it one. So just try your best my friend!!!

Semester started last week, i have been in the stressful mode everyday. I think i also reached the stressful limit. I know it is not so tough but some how my concept still isn't there. Hence, this causing me feel so stressful and really lead me back to the previous stage when i first entering UTAR. Haiz, i got a bad memorised capability. I can't really know why the previous stage i can understand but after one semester, i forgot most of the thing and it required me to study the whole thing again. So, i damn hate myself...bad brain!!!!

ok la, so i need to work soon as 11am i got class. Nice to see you here and miss you a lot!!!Take care and love you~~~

3rd Jun 2010

Happy birthday my dear lovely best friend,
sorry for the long no reply blog. I am preparing for my final.
Well, not that well, since I have a lot more to catch up and the stress level has reached the limit.
Sorry that I couldn't celebrate with you this year, which deep in heart I really wish to do so.
But I would like to wish you here,
Happy birthday my sze wang,
I love you!!