Hi dear

haha, so happy to meet here again!!

I am so stress recently, the "stress" here actually are referring two things which are my work and my relationship with fatty. Honestly speaking, the most worrying me is the second one. Last Sunday my whole family came down to find my grandma and 3rd kuma as you know, we all have a thought that my grandma wouldn't be here long. After lunch, we went back to 3rd kuma's house to have some fruits then my grandma suddenly insisted my mum to stay back and asked us to go out for shopping. You know what, my first intuition told me that there must be something important that grandma has to tell my mum, and i thought it was related to father. But during dinner time i asked my mum, she told me that the so called" Important" thing was about me. I was so shocked because it was out of my expectation. Started from last Sunday, this issue has been surrounding me and it makes me hard to breath. My grandma asked my mum to stop my relationship with cuti and she said kuma has a lots of men need to introduce me. She said fatty is not a good guy to be with and if i kept be with him then my consequently possible will end up like my eldest kuma or my 5th kuma( divorced)!!

You see, i am so angry about this as this all was done by my 3rd kuma. She told my grandma about all this but not to me myself. Then she made use of my grandma to tell my mum, this made my mum looks so idiot as she wanted my mum to stop me but this is not what my mum's intention. So i feel so sad to have this thing happened and it makes me helpless.

I went to "tian hou gong" to pray and asked what should i do to handle this. The god said i need to tolerate and wait and dont give up. It is hard though i still need to stand still like what you had done for the past few years when you had a hard time with kitty. The most thing we worried is my grandma, as she didn't know anything but just purely listening to my 3rd kuma. She is the one who gives me a lot of stresses as she is the person who is nearly-to-say-good-bye, and if she still worried about this during the time she is dying(touch wood), then this all is not good to us and i scared it will change to become a curse. Do you think so???

My parent kept calling on and on, you see how desperate i am!!!

Next week is the most busy week i have as i need to mark 1500 scripts in few days, i think i can be super girl. And the week after next week will be my final... so i am so moody recently....

Anyway, hope to see you update soon!! Love you

XIN XIN

Happy Raya

Hi dear!

Finally I could log on after several trials for the past few days. How are you recently?

I felt touched and yet happy the moment I read through what you have written to me. Thanks a lot and deeply appreciate what you have written. Obviously I didnt forget about you as you are still the closest pal to me. Nowadays I keep thinking back those days we were in uni together. We walked through the trees, along the long road(whenever we were late and parked far away from school), you were holding your blue file (super thick one) ,whilst I were carrying my red bag (as usual). We talked about future, our plannings and many more. Though most of them are yet to come true, but I am still anticipating our promise to go somewhere outside the country.

Recently had been quite stress over work. Working life is as expected, much tougher than studying life( though we both always grumbling study was hard). However, in term of politics issues, power ruling and monetary are never our main concern in past. Once we stepped into society, we were bounded to face all those. Sad to hear right?

Any planning at the moment? I doubt the next moment you write to me, should be a year later? haha

Hope to hear from you soon.hugs

lotz of love ,
Hui

To my long distance friend

Hi, long time really didn't see you, it seemed to be like the 1st meeting.

How are you recently? This blog seemed to be abundant for long time ago. I am now still worrying about my report because i still have no idea how to investigate into the problem. Anyway, no matter how still need to finish it, will try my best to do it. About the result, then it is all depend on the lecturer.

I like to guess sometime, i guess that you will open this blog after few months or years i think. Ha, i sounded so bad, this indicates that you are busying until no time to do your personal thing. But this is not from my heart of speaking actually, my heart said, you already forgotten me.

I think i am too care about our relationship, so this will certainly bring you some burden about this because is some one too care about something but you just work like usual way. Suddenly you found that the friend you has is too care about the friendship but not to your extend, it sure will bring you some force.

I am thinking too much sometime. I think that you will leave me someday and you will find some best friend better than me or etc. I think the reason caused me to have this kind of feeling is we both are too good in previously. But the thing makes me sad is i always put you in the 1st place but you always put me in the second place. So it is quite unbalanced sometime. I am not blaming you that you are not putting me in the 1st place, just want to express what i was feeling so far.

I am so glad to have such a good friend like you, in order to reduce the burden of mine for this kind of thinking, i want to release you from my heart. I scared next time i see you, i will have this kind of bad feeling, i have better released you now then only i can release myself.

Suddenly thinking that why i want to write this to you, but anyway, this is the promise that to you, i have to always be faithful and honest. Have to take care and good night.

7th June 2010

Hi there,
today is my first day for study week. Trust me, it is extremely stressful and lonely to stay in the room, with nothing much around. No entertainment, but just all stacks of books waiting for you to flipped through and a list of video lectures to listen over and over again, just to get used to the accent of the Australian accents. It is totally terrible and horrified.

Just finish taking my heavy meal, pumpkin soup and stir fry pumpkin chicken mushroom. Haha. Kinda tasty actually ( oh well, it seems flattering myself over here, or perhaps I just want to take a short break while having my lunch). I recalled those days while I were having my finals in UTAR. I don't remember that I was so bad feeling as compared to now. Here, totally different. Haiz, I really regretting to study such situation, but no choice and have to get use to it and forced myself to go on. Somehow, at some critical point, my mind collapse, thought of getting way easy by just ending my life like that. Somehow it seems not worthy thinking it rational, but that the moment I really had the courage to do as such.

Well, I guess I would most likely to teach more than studying here like hell. There is a friend of mine, who stay overnight in the lab just to study... Sounds crazy right? Well, I think to others, I am as such as well, but the only difference is I study at home rather than outside. Outside was just too cold, and I don't even to step out from my door. It is winter now, but no snowing. Haha. I doubt there aren't snow in Canberra.

Another few more days, my exam C result will be out. Trust me, most likely I don't think I will pass again. Another anxious and disappointment is waiting for me again .

Have to continue to listen my video lecture then. Miss you a lot and add oil in your work.

hugs

Thanks!!!!:)

Ha, Thank you so much for your wishes... I know you are now damn busy and stressful, i can empathise your situation now. So, i do really hope that you dont go crazy and can successfully graduated from your Universiti. You know what, somehow in my thinking, i know you can do it one. So just try your best my friend!!!

Semester started last week, i have been in the stressful mode everyday. I think i also reached the stressful limit. I know it is not so tough but some how my concept still isn't there. Hence, this causing me feel so stressful and really lead me back to the previous stage when i first entering UTAR. Haiz, i got a bad memorised capability. I can't really know why the previous stage i can understand but after one semester, i forgot most of the thing and it required me to study the whole thing again. So, i damn hate myself...bad brain!!!!

ok la, so i need to work soon as 11am i got class. Nice to see you here and miss you a lot!!!Take care and love you~~~

3rd Jun 2010

Happy birthday my dear lovely best friend,
sorry for the long no reply blog. I am preparing for my final.
Well, not that well, since I have a lot more to catch up and the stress level has reached the limit.
Sorry that I couldn't celebrate with you this year, which deep in heart I really wish to do so.
But I would like to wish you here,
Happy birthday my sze wang,
I love you!!

Thu

Sorry for SOOO long never enter to our blog, as you know, semester is going to start and lots of things need to follow up in the recent day. So how are you recently? Still mugging and stressful? Hope that you can do well in your final my dear.

Yesterday just received my time table, luckily it is not more than 27 hours, only 24 hours. But i still need to beware that some subjects are repeated unit and the number of students can increase in no time. Hence, i just can say that the working load now is just an approximate load, indeed. Ha ha so recently, i am quite busy with the note and studying materials preparation. Time flies, June is coming, i already worked in UTAR for 1 years. This indicates that i already older for one more year, getting older and older.

Em, how's is kitty? if he still bullying you, i will kick his butt and punge him as hard as i can.
ha.

hope to get your reply ... take care!