FOR my dearest hui hui

Yesterday i created a video for you to express my feeling, unfortunately after recording, i opened to view just realised that my voice was too soft the hear, i only can observed my mouth moving. Sienz diao, i actually wanted to let you see how sad and how angry i am. Never mind, do you want it? if yes, then i will post it.

According to yesterday issue, i was very unwilling to say "Yes" to my father. He called me yesterday and he asked me whether i would go to my kuma's house this weekend as he will be coming to stay one night. Hence, he needs some one to open door for him as my kuma does not want to do so. I asked my father to come to my house to stay and then the answer he gave me which totally upset me as he said my room is too small and not comfortable to sleep. He disfavored my place. I am not willing to go to my kuma's house as i feel pressure every time. I want to escape, i want to run far far away from her, but every time i will still follow her way. I want to study Chinese study, but she is the one who wants me to do Maths and Actuarial Science. I feel like she is controlling my life. I want to prove to her my point of view is correct but just afraid that i cant do well in chinese study and this causes me cant find a job and then she will blame me for all this.

What should i do? ya, you said i can get a job, i trust you but the thing is, you remembered P exam? you said i can pass but you were using sth to exchange a pass for my P. Hence i am afraid that you are doing the same thing again. Sorry to say that, but just dont want you to do this for me as not worth while of losing sth. So tell me truthfully, are you doing this? if no, i may go to study in Chinese Study but i dont know how to tell my kuma once i get it. Nvm i will try to apply 1st then see the result how, if they accpet me then i will con't but if they dont, then i will study back the mathematical sciences.

haha. sorry to keep on emo emo. So see whether can post up another video today.