Sunday sunday

Hi my friend, how are you today? After reading your blog, i know that you are trying hard to put down your feeling towards her, and i am quite pleased for this. Even though you are trying to let go, it is better than you indulge yourself in sad mode and wash your face with tears everyday. You need to put a full stop here and continue your own journey.

It is good that kitty is around you, i think he is trying his best to make you happy again. So you can increase one more credit for him, in your heart. Don't let him know because for sure that he will be proud of that and start to make compliment of himself.

Actually I haven't finished my work, but there are too many things which are unknown, hence what i can do is just insert everything that i think is appropriate for the proposal. You know what, i used back the Sudoku proposal and just made some amendments. If want me to write from empty, then i think i also couldn't finish so fast. Luckily everything i still kept in my mail box, as you know i never delete anything inside my mail box. This is the advantage of keeping everything, but disadvantage is there will be filled with rubbish.

Yesterday went out with my kuma and grandma for dinner with my kuma's friends. Frankly speaking, I really dont like the feeling while with my kuma's friends, although they are good, but i felt stress. It made me feel like an idiot having dinner with them because in their eyes, i am like a stupid girl. Maybe because my kuma scolded me just because i didnt't bring tissue. You know me, i not the kind of person bringing tissue everyday, so logically i seldom bring tissue along. Suddenly grandma coughing, my kuma asked me for tissue, i said i dont have ,then she questioned me why i dont have tissue? her expression with anger about my forgetful. I felt shamed actually, i dont know where i should look at.What i done was, i acted steadily by looking around with nothing-happened face to face them. I know they dont care, but my self esteem was trembling inside my heart. So now i need to learn how to let go of the anger and hatred. That's why i am not willing to join her for dinner or lunch because it is really stressful and tired for acting.

Sorry for keeping on complaining but after telling you, it somehow released my anger. Ha ,thanks.(dont ask me why i said thanks)

Final exam will start on tomorrow and my busy time is reaching~marking papers.

So, next week you will be in Sidney and take care. Dont stess as i know you can do it.

add oil!! hughs